TOO MUCH

Yes I was too fat, too loud, to creative, to in your face, to mad. You name it and I have been called it.
What in reality was too much was the  amount of guilt and hurt the little girl was carrying.

The thing is that I am a big being. Larger than life. Except I had translated that larger than life into the physical body and was then just plain and simple fat.

All the guilt and pain was all nicely packaged and hidden out of sight. All that you got to see was the fat.


Now that the fat is nearly all gone , I am left with  the exposed bits of me. The guilt and the hurts with no fat to blame for it. It is so easy to blame fat for being the problem in life. It is only the tip of the iceberg.

I am brave enough now to deal with it and with open arms welcome my internal victim, my external bully, my internal shame, my external pusher,my external bitch, my internal hurting child, my external successful one, the internal shy one.


All of this makes me up as the bigger than life woman I am .
With grace I carry this forward and give thanks for such a big life .


I share more of this in my book Emotional Fat. www.emotionalfat.com